scared of .........

I am scared. Of getting hurt. Today, I know something. I had suspected this but I maintained my cool over the past weeks. But I felt something more today that almost confirmed it. I have no clue why at first. And I was wondering the whole time. I try to shut it off but it demanded to stay. And now, I am scared if this would disappoint me in the end.

Okay2. What I discovered was: I care. A lot. No, I mean...a WHOLE lot. And I also know, that this would get me screwed. You know what...I don't know. I'm confused. I'm probably a mess. And I am definitely scared.