I won't ask anymore

His words were hurtful. I received a msg this morning from him and it kinda tears my heart. I asked myself...what is wrong? What have I done? But it seems...everything from me is just not right. Am I asking too much? Am I being too difficult? Am I spending too much of your money?!

Okay. I won't do that again. Okay. You don't have to come and see me. Okay. You don't have to call me. Not even once. I can live. You don't have to say you love me anymore. I know. You don't have to try to please me. And you don't have to try to understand me. Yes, I am a workaholic so I can basically just focus on what I have to do and what I want to do. You can say what you want of me...yes, I am all that.

I wish we can just get married, and have all these far apart problems away. But apparently we can't. I have to wait. So, I'll wait. What more can I ask? Well, now I ask for nothing. I ask for nothing except that you will always love me until the day I die. If love comes with money, I don't want any of it. I just want love without the material stuff and whatsoevernots.

Certainly...I really do think that I need to find that calm place...