Ily, Cheer Up!

At the office. Was feeling really down until someone cheered me up. But I did a lot of thinking (man, I'm a thinker!). I was chatting with one of ToW guys and had a quite deep talking. He told me that Hisyam pointed out my emo-ness to the guys and they had a laugh over that. He tried to talked me out of having a break from the club (although it had started) but I guess I wasn't tolerating it. I need this. Or else I'll be more emo than before.

This all occured because Swen suddenly knew something from my life and decided to spread it around. I told him already to not let the guys know. He was supposed to keep it to himself but no, he decided it would be best to tell the guys. I didn't mind all their katai-ings before because I'm used to that but this time, it was a bit too much. And just now, Swen called, I just refused the invitation to hang out with them. He sounded like he knows that I was seriously emo, but who cares? I'll be back as usual in a few days anyway.

Hmm..I have always try to accept people as who they are (switching topic). However, I don't try to accept myself as who I am. I mean, I love myself and all. But I am always skeptical of what I am capable of and I have a somewhat low self-esteem. I always say to myself, 'Xde org yg perfect. If you like a person, you got to accept his bad traits and his own self. Kene tau yg not everyone ader same pendapat dalam semua bende.' But even I am not accepting of myself and always feeling as low as I can. I hate this and I really hope to get more confidence in myself this year.

Okk2. "Jgn lyn sgt rasa2 tuh" --> I have to remember his words. Farid, nnt cheer me up some more k. I can't help it. Rasa tuh ader gak. Nvm, I'll get through this. I know I can. "Jgn lyn sgt. Kejap je tuh."

I got to go. See ya later in the next post. ChoWwWzzZaA!!