Early test

I realize that it's getting harder and harder to try and live my life like a fairytale. I forgot for a while that in reality, happiness doesn't stick forever. These lately, some things have been happening. Maybe it's because of my sudden sensitivity towards every little thing or maybe it's because of tested patience etc etc. But what is true is that all that is happening are meant to test me.

I missed hanging out with my guys dearly...but being a university student, with much work to endure, it's getting hard for us to group together. Moreover, I now have extra responsibility so I have to consider the extra too. I've been drifting away from the guys...but I really miss them.

Relationship with my bf is going good, but there are trial times that I find it hard. I've been very sensitive lately and is trying to get out of it. He's been having his temper but I don't know what he is doing to control it. I hate it when we get into fights because it never failed to hurt me but somehow, relationships are meant to have them. It's quite puzzling. Why can't we have a very peaceful relationship? Anyone have them?

I'm concern with money also. Trying to get Mom to bank-in money into my account is such a hard thing to do. She still thinks we're in an era where we can have some things for a cheap price. Well, not everything Ma! And I dislike the fact that she thinks I'm supported by my bf. Come on, I'm not married yet! Wait til I get married and all your 'banking-in money for Liyana' will not be of your concern anymore! Gosh, can you feel the tension now?

And one more thing. I am a little jealous because my sister got into a course which I so badly want to be in since I was little. Well, thanks for me being the eldest, I have to take up somthing got to do with computer! Not that I dislike computing, but I want to do journalism so bad! I love writing!! Grrrr!!!

Okk2...it's 10pm. The lab is closing. I better go. Guess I have to go through these life tests my own way. Huh. ChOwWWwZZzzaAAa for noww!!!!