Modern

I have to tell myself everyday that it'll be 5 freaking long years before the big thing happen.
I so badly wanted it to happen quick but he keeps me guessing with his attitude that it's not going to happen any sooner.
I have to remind myself that it'll be 5 freaking long years to keep myself from exaggerating of our 'big day'.

I'm not wanting this merely for the sake of being married or whatsoever.
I am sure I can go through whatever obstacles that'll come after that.
It's just the whole modern world thing.
I dislike modern. Modern smells filthy to me.
Sex is so open nowadays that people don't think twice before doing it.
I don't want to go into that. But the devil's desire is increasing.
I am a muslim. And I want to preserve that.

So, I don't think marriage is a wrong thing when you're young.
You just have to have support, faith in each other and God, and go through it just fine.

But yes.
Modernisation is cruel.
Shit.