Friendship

You know, I never wished I was single again. Because even with all the hard stuff I've gone through, I still like it here where I am. Sometimes I heard people (who are in a r/ship) said that they wishes to be single again...and a friend and I came to a conclusion : These people are feeling not right/depressed in their r/ship to be saying things like that. If you are okay and you feel that your r/ship is working out regardless of the ups and downs, you won't feel like that.

I am not saying this because I have a great r/ship and that it's perfect. Because it's not. Nothing is perfect actually. I have my ups and downs...sometimes over some stupid things. But I have faith in this, I have faith in myself and I have faith in him. Relationship requires a lot of patience, tolerance, gives & takes, understanding, trust, honesty and I guess most of the stuff that you too can think of.

I am not what you say a girl that guys want to be with. Guys will treat me as one of them (of course, not exactly like they treat a guy!). My greatest friends are 99% guys and no, I don't feel any attraction to any of them. So, I respect my bf for trying to understand me (simply because I'm not the easiest person to be understood). I know that it's hard for him to take me as I am and to learn my ways...it's also hard for me to change from who I am before...but we're doing it both. Understanding each other's needs -- him giving me a little freedom to go out with them (because they are my friends since I was so little - "This is Friendship," Arif said.) and I have to create boundaries and limits in going out with them.

Some of the guys that I used to hang out with are not to pleased with the way I am not in the case that I seldom hang out with them anymore (haha...they missed me!). They said some not so great things...but this is actually my choice. I choose to do what I am doing now...I don't want to hang out until late 12 midnight etc and they have to understand that. So far, Arif, Naf, Aji and Crip understands it (figures...since I've been with these guys since primary school). The rest -- some just kept quiet and some, well, as I was telling you before...hmmm... My action? I don't care. If I think what I'm doing now is good, I'll just continue with it.

That's what I really feel now. Just need to get this off my chest. Some of the guys like Arif, Crip, Naf and Aji...I don't mind hanging out with. They're always there for me, don't mind me being just plain Ili...the friend they knew since little, supporting me with good changes, lets me speak my mind out and giving me a piece of their mind after and so much more. Like what Arif said, "Ni lah Friendship!" (which reminds me also of what Ikan once said to me).

Until then, I'll sign off here. Be back with another episode with another title. ;) Hehehehheh. ChOwWWwZZzzaaaAa!!!!

meet the parents

Gosh I haven't blog for quite some time huh? Well..I've been busy with exams and all. Then after exam, us Muslims had our Raya celebration..which was a blast. Hehheheh. My theme this year is green..but I was the odd one out of the family. Apparently, my family theme was a bit more to reddish,pink kinda color. So...yeah. Big diff there.

Then, I have some eat-in last wednesday. It was actually in the occasion of him coming to my house (as if he hadn't come!). I guess it's like a bit of a special thing...braya thingy. So, we prepared Laksa Johore for them and a bit of this and that eg fruits, cookies...not much actually.

Yesterday, it was my turn to go to his house. Truth is, I was quite nervous because his mom was going to be there. I've been to his house a couple of times but his parents were not around. And yesterday was like...nerve-wrecking thingy!! I was concern about the way I look, the way I dress, the way I speak, in general...the way I present myself.

There are so many questions in my head..is this ok? Does his mother like me or not..? Is this the proper way to act? I'm being myself of course..but I noticed the feeling of shyness that crept into me. Come on...I haven't been in a situation like this! It really is sumthing else! Goshhh!!

And it was a bit of a relief that his mother is sooo nice (it reflects upon his son). His dad too! It shows that they both came from a good family. My mom was kind of surprised at how nice his mother is and that he treats me in a way that no one else does. She asked a lot about him and asked if I behaved well at his house...she should actually ask him rite..?

I am soo glad that my parents approve him....soo happyy!! =D Seriously, I really want them to see him as not like any other guys. He is the one guy that I truly love and of course, you would want your parents to approve someone you love rite...and alhamdulillahh...one burden down (since my parents have given the OK sign). One thing that I have to worry now is...Me. Erk!

And that's it for today. ChOWWwZZzZaAAa!!!